Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Yeah, quick update.

Just to pacify some people as to the loss of where i've been, I am currently residing in a hospital, being treated for a very bad case of ammonia. I hope to be back soon.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

A simple clarification...

*WARNING: Could-be-making-generalizations alert! Bsaed on general observations.*

I am a Gender Equalist.

This is a term I came up with on my own volition after a lot of Feminist and Masculinist views-both extreme- made me hit the middle. Gender Equalism is the belief that, in media and in real life, men and women can hold the same roles and carry different, yet similar views without being looked down upon or portrayed as useless or unnecessary. This stemmed from two important gender inequalities that I've noticed in media; That men are generally perceived as stupid or someone who always makes mistakes and has to apologize for them, and that women aren't capable of being kind and sweet, as well as being capable of physical strength or combative ability. It's usually one or the other. Another problem is that Men cannot get themselves in trouble, while women can so easily, and that women can are pushed to be sexual objects or-in more cases than the latter- unfeeling, "ice-queens", where they can show affection instead.

For some reason, Feminists seem to feel that strength seems to outweigh the consideration of being kind, which is what I've been used to a lot of my life. When I was young, I used to enjoy watching stronger women, like video-game characters like Chun-Li or Sammy from Street Fighter, or women in movies and media that could take care of themselves and fight, getting themselves out of situations. Eventually, I started to realize that kinder, sweeter women were around me more and have been there to support me and for me to support them. When I made that distinction, I tried combining the two ideas; a sweet, gentle female who supports and who can be supported, but who can also fight.

Just to clear that up.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Some Late-Night Thoughts.

As I sat here, clipping my toes and having cut myself with a razor...this being the second time, since my little razor facade when I was five...I thought about something I don't generally think about.

If I think too much.

In my own perspective and lifestyle, I tend to analyze and consider many different points of view and beliefs in media, culture, work, etc. Because of this, I am capable of seeing the world in many different ways and taking in knowledge more readily. At the same time, this also makes it harder to listen to others with more experience than I do, I think. I think it also tends to aggravate specific people because:

A) I tend to be able to convey my many different thoughts clearly, making people confused or generally unable to understand what I'm saying-without me realizing it as such, making me angry.
B) When I'm certain of something, I tend to get defensive or aggressive about something I know or feel, and that tends to cause argument or misunderstanding which can cost me or others. This also tends to jump to responsibilities I have or things in my life that I find enjoyable.

Now, the solution would likely be to think less, but I find that prospect very hard to believe or act upon because of my disorder and who I am, and it's also because I want to be able to think. I want to be able to think and see things clearly in life...I want to be able to think so that I can interact with many different people without sounding dumb or inexperienced or what-have-you.